Yesterday was one for the books! I can honestly say it was one of the worst days I have ever had to go through. It started early! Actually it started at 6 a.m.. Slowly, but very surely it headed downhill from there. What is sad is it was supposed to be a wonderful day for me! I would at last hold my first book in my hand. A dream I had, had since I was a child would come true that day. My publisher told me to have tissues nearby, because it would be so joyous. I didn’t get to cry tears of joy yesterday, I had to deal with other things.
I am not going to give the devil the pleasure of telling you each thing he did. As I sit and look back on yesterday, I am thinking it through asking God what on earth happened?? This book must be one more powerful book and I can say that because GOD wrote that book!! I had the easy part…I just typed it! I have heard all of my life the devil attacks the hardest when you are making the most headway! If the suffering I endured was indeed for Christ yesterday, it was worth it!
It is literally like pulling teeth to write this. I write through a veil of tears. But yesterday is over and the remnants that want to carry over into today, but God will show me how to deal with those! No weapon formed against me shall prosper and every tongue that rises against me shall be shown to be in the wrong is my mantra and it will get me through. If God be for me, who can be against me? Not one person. Does it hurt when those you love most are the ones many times that bring that hurt? Oh, yes! But, God sees it and God will bring it back around to a place of justice and grace!
Christianity is not a bed of roses and persecution is not fun, but it is part of it and you have to know who the source of it is! Today is a new day. The hurts of yesterday are trying to linger but I have a choice! Today, I choose joy! Today, I choose to be an overcomer! I get to choose! Satan, nor anyone he tries to use against me gets to choose but I get to choose what my slate will say today!! That slate says today I am an encourager, I am unselfish, I am full of God’s love, I flow in His Spirit toward other hurting people, I put a smile on my face and I wear the full armor of God so that I can resist the wiles of the enemy!!
There is a song that is running over in my head we sang when I was a little girl in an old country church. The words went something like this…
I will not be defeated, I will not be defeated, I will not be defeated anymore!
When the Holy Ghost came in, he gave me power over sin! I will not be defeated anymore!
That doesn’t just mean MY sin, but the sins of others against me! It is defeated and I am the victor!! When you see yourself as something you will act it out! I see it and I act on it!! Today and everyday, victory is mine. I only lose it if I hand it over through seeing and doing things my way instead of God’s. I have a choice here, too…I choose God’s way, therefore I choose joy!
Blessings, dear reader! I will see you next time! Juliana